Spur Of The Moment

I stayed up once I posted here on Friday, I didn't want to go to sleep, I was bored with sleep. Ever since I've been sick that's all I've been doing. Hell I've barely been outside of my room all last week. It wasn't so bad when Sara was visiting me but when she was at work it really blew. I've come to realize that I've been depending on her way too much, I thought it was time I did some stuff that didn't involve her.

Just before seven I had showered and gotten dressed, I was on my way out when mom happened to come down the stairs to ask me what I was doing. "Just going out," I told her. She thought I was going to meet Sara, she told me to tell Sara she said hello. I didn't bother to correct her, I didn't bother to tell her that I wasn't even sure if Sara was going to stop by after work that morning. I just walked out the door and down the street.

I didn't have a plan for where I was going, I just didn't want to be locked in my room any longer. I thought about heading into town for breakfast but I didn't really want to drive anywhere so instead I started to walk, not towards the highway but back towards the end of my street, back towards the park.

From the park I could see my parents' street. In fact, from the park, if I were seated on the top of the slides, I had a clear view of my parents' front door. When I was a kid I would often come down to this park to hang out with my friends. As I grew older, it would become a place associated with more 'adult' play than what the park was originally designed for; sex, drugs and rocknroll were all parts of my teen aged years in this park.

Sitting on top of the slides, I stared off in the general direction of my street. I wasn't sure how long I was there but finally I saw a familiar car. At first I wanted to jump up and take off running, hoping to catch her before she got to my house but I hesitated, even though I knew it was childish of me, I was mad that she refused to tell me what she was doing that night. SO I stayed on the slides and watched her turn into my driveway.

From the distance, I couldn't really see the finer details but it looked like she was carrying something as she walked up the steps to the front door. I would be willing to bet that mom was surprised to see her and that Sara was equally surprised to find out that I wasn't home. When she turned to walk towards her car again, I noticed she was no longer carrying the bag, I wondered what was in it and why she left it with mom.

I watched her drive away. I still wanted to take off running to stop her but the jerk in me stayed seated on the slides.

I waited until mom and dad left for the store before I headed back to the house.

The bag Sara left was the first thing I noticed when I walked into the kitchen, there was a note from mom laying on the table beside it. I ignored both as I headed through the kitchen to the living room and finally upstairs to my room.

I spent a couple hours playing 'Devil May Cry' on the PlayStation before throwing the controller down. I headed back down stairs to the kitchen where I was going to grab something to eat but I spotted the bag Sara left. Fuck this! I thought. I grabbed the keys to the car and I walked out the door.

I didn't have anywhere to go so I drove around for a while but soon I was sick of doing the same old laps in town so I started to head back towards the house, only once I was on the highway, I fly pass the turn off and continued going.

Hours later I found myself in my old town, parked in front of the empty spot that used to hold my restaurant before it burnt to the ground. It had only been a couple months but things already seemed so different. I didn't know what I was doing there and I was feeling bad about not being home when Sara stopped by, I was going to turn around to head back home or at least back to Lakeland to see Sara but as I drove down the street, I spotted Chapters.

With a smile on my face, I whipped my car around the turn off and into the bookstores parking lot. It had been a while since I've been in Chapters, I thought as I made my way in through the main doors. I wonder if -

"OH MY GOD! TANNER!" I turned towards the Starbucks coffee shop located to the right of the entrance just in time to see a blur of pink and blond as it crashed into me, sending me stumbling backwards against the wall. "I missed you!" Mandy shrieked while wrapping her arms around my neck. "It's about time you came to see me!"